It was a wonderful time with my in-laws and my precious children! Then three days later tragedy hit our house, David's wonderful grandpa, the kids g-pa passed from this life into the arms of Jesus. He had been hospitalized but it was so fast and we were not prepared. He was such a Godly man...we miss him so much already.
I have had so many wonderful plans on how I was going to have my days and my nights, but yea...all good plans right. Because I stayed up way to late, my kids got up late, which meant they didn't eat right, which meant I was in a bad mood and felt like I was running around all day, which meant I wasn't prepared, and felt overwhelmed and disoriented. We got to dance late and because I didn't make Kaitlyn take a potty break, she had an accident in class. Then because I didn't plan dinner, we ate fast food...AGAIN! So I have sought council...in God's Holy Word and in outside sources, from people are inspired by the Holy Spirit to share Godly wisdom. Her name is Susan Heid and she writes a blog called Confident Mom. You can find her link to the side bar of my blog, but she is writing this month about something God has been speaking volumes to me: Time Management. I have loved it. But I am scared, I have promised myself so much and have promised God so many times, what if I fail, what if I don't follow through...again. But here is the thing, now...now it is so much more than myself that I am not living up to, it is my precious blessings that God has bestowed upon me, has trusted with. If I don't get myself up in the morning, don't try to be the best I can be, the best person God made me to be, then they are not getting the best mom they deserve. And in reality, that is what I truly desire. To give my children the best person I can be, not the person I think I should be, but the person God designed me to be. Not so that I can perfect and have it all together, but so my children can live in a home full of peace, a safe haven to run to from the world. So that my hard working husband can come home to organized and simplicity...and peace. That is my desire. Now...turn off the computer, go to bed and begin.
Allison
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