It's Not About Me

Wow!  You never know how much you get out of Worship and Praising God in church, until you can't.  I had to work yesterday, so I couldn't go to church and I didn't even realize I had lost my focus until I listened to a song posted by a blog I follow.

I started to listen and to praise God and all of a sudden, the Holy Spirit brought something to my mind by one line in the song.....

I live my life to shine Your Light
There is none besides you God

I was hit between the eyes with that one!

It is not about my hurt feelings, insecurities, finding a perfect house, having a successful program...
IT IS NOT ABOUT ME!

Satan tries so hard to take my focus off of the big picture (serving God) and focusing on things that rob me from joy (fears, insecurity, anger..).  The joy of serving my God, of living for Him, of putting Him first in my life.  Those things bring me true joy and every time my focus strays, I become discontent and full of anxiety and think lies of myself...

The thing is, why do I keep doing this?  Why can't I stay in the focus of the big picture?  Stay in the grace and love of my heavenly Father?  Why do I get swept up in the lies to the point that I can't see the forest from the trees? 

I am not sure why I do, but I am so glad that there is grace...grace from my family members, grace from my friends...

And the perfect grace from my precious Heavenly Father...my Loving Abba...the One who brings the songs and moments in life to bring me back to His wonderful peace and wonderful love.

Here is the song that touched my life...

Under Construction

When I was a little girl I imagined myself and what I would look like when I was in my thirties...I would have a family, be a mom and stay at home with my babies and take care of them and my home.  Everything would be sunshine and rainbows and lollipops.  I would be a success in every sense of the word.  I would have perfect kids, perfect husband and have the perfect life.  Then...well then real world set in.  That's where I am now.  I have possibly the three greatest kids in the world and THE world's greatest husband, but I am far from perfect, and my life is FAR from perfect.  And guess what?...

I am right where Jesus wants me.

Let's say my life was full of sunshine and rainbows and lollipops...what did He come to Earth to save?  Why did He die if everything was perfect...perfection is so far from where we are supposed to be because that is where He can do is best work.  When I am flawed, that is where He comes and moves His Spirit in and mold us to what He has for us...the abundant life...the life He has planned for us...not the life we have planned for ourselves.